I don’t think any woman who has had a baby doesn’t go through some sort of down period. Whether it be the big D (depression) or just the blues, we all get them. And they are valid big or small. Today was one of those days. I had no motivation to do anything. My back aches terribly. I am not sleeping as much as I’d like, and the saddest part is it isn’t because of Dax! After his second feeding for the night I somehow am UNABLE to fall back asleep, and when I do its been TWO hours! Which means he wakes up within 45mins to an hour for his morning feeding. I get so angry with myself. Half the time I kid myself thinking perusing instagram and facebook will make me tired. In fact it turns into a black hole of finding new bloggers, or stores, or “hey is that on sale” to waking up in the morning to emails of late night eBay bids and Nordstrom purchases. I am excited for my skirt, and baby carrier. See! I’m always distracted. What was I talking about? Oh Ya! Baby blues!
I am tired of the baby weight that I still have on. I want to fit into my jeans I love so badly. I think that I have lost weight then get on the scale only to realize I have gained 2lbs. Then I say “Screw it” and go drink a Coke Zero and eat some salted caramel chocolate covered macadamia nuts. It’s a dark road. Once you go down the chocolate road its almost impossible to come back. Like the 3 chocolate cupcakes I ate within 21 hours for my birthday. But then I feel good for about 3 seconds and then go try on my jeans again and realize that chocolate doesnt burn carbs.
So, Tees and Maxis are where its at!
Photos by: Shelby Preston